people are particularly frustrating this week.

and you have no idea how mad i wish i could be at everyone. it's frustrating, when the people you think will listen the most will listen, but listen eventually, in their own time. but it's also amazing at how the people you doubted would listen listen full-heartedly and go beyond what you thought was possible.

sometimes caring for someone means pulling teeth from others. you would think everyone would be on the same page when it comes to a common goal.

i want to be mad at certain people, but really, i'm not.

just disappointed.
mostly at myself for having either the wrong expectations or expectations that were too high. but also because i thought some people knew me better. and i thought i knew them better.

i guess not.

well, summer's almost over. pam had a good birthday, she loves her gifts, and i have to babysit for an awesome awesome family that i'm going to miss soooo much when i go back to school.
i'm excited to see everyone back at school, but at the same time there are a lot of relationships here at home that weren't here before that i know i'm going to miss when i leave.

let's just see if i've learned my lesson and will do a better job at watering those relationships to help them grow even though i'm not here.

saving them last time was just short of calling them miracles. and that's just one time too close to call it safe.