some of my close friends just started new relationships, and Pastor Kyle at Twin Orchards started preaching a series on love, sex, and intimacy from the book of Song of Songs. i was talking to a guy-friend yesterday online and he was saying how he was having some girl trouble and asking me if i had my eye on anyone and that if there was a guy that he would have to go through him before anything is established.
get in line, mister. join the ten million other people who told me they have to be in the screening process. at this rate, i think "the one" will be the only one who survives it.
i think "love is in the air."
but, i am not shaken. if anything, i am constantly being reassured by God in His love and His will that i do not need to be anxious about boys or relationships or my future husband anytime soon.
here, even the psalm i read today for my quiet time reaffirmed that:
Psalm 27
Of David.
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When evil men advance against me
to devour my flesh,
when my enemies and my foes attack me,
they will stumble and fall.
3 Though an army besiege me,
my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me,
even then will I be confident.
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.
5 For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.
6 Then my head will be exalted
above the enemies who surround me;
at his tabernacle will I sacrifice with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make music to the LORD.
7 Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
9 Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
O God my Savior.
10 Though my father and mother forsake me,
the LORD will receive me.
11 Teach me your way, O LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.
13 I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
see? how could i ever fear not finding "the one" when God is the stronghold of my life? i am confident that i will see goodness wherever God may lead me, to whomever He may lead me. and i LOVE the last verse because it reminds me to wait and be strong and take heart to wait for God.
and, God & i are working on being the future wife i'm supposed to be for my future husband. it's very exciting :D
it's like, i'm content with myself, but at the same time i'm not settling for the way i am right now. i want to love Jesus more, to be more like him. i want people to see that love pouring out in every aspect of my life.
it's tough. but i'm working on it.
when God reveals to me someone special, i want them to see me genuinely, madly in love with Jesus, just how He is madly in love with me.
and oh, am i starting to fall in love with Jesus. it's a work in progress. i'm getting there.
maybe this is why i feel so funky this semester. love gives you a funky feeling. but really feeling God's love, ohhhhh man. it's beyond funky. it's beyond our imagination :]
if i haven't told you already what the biggest things i've been learning in my life since the start of college, i'll tell you right now. i've been learning to really, truly, genuinely start believing in what i know to be true. putting my heart where my mind is. and oh, is it aligning.
it's so liberating learning everyday to be real to others and to myself.
praise God for His awesome Word, power, and love.
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